Tuesday, May 19, 2009
oh gosh im glad that 2dae actually sort of make up for the past few daes. for the past few days my mind just couldnt concentrate no matter wat i do even during Sunday church service. i feel damm bad. i feel so dumb!!! i have wasted my concentration on some things/people for nth! NTH!!!!! i was damm tired during sermon so i slept a bit. then my mum told me that we will b goin to malaysia on 30th may and will back 31st may, the nxt. bcos of this supid and retarded trip, she forced me to cancel my movie appointment( the 1 on revolution) and my soccer match! gosh its so unreasonable luh. i have made my plannings b4 theirs so its onli fair that they respect me! bt sad to sae, they DUN!!!!! then iwana go cycling with my churchies then aso cnt! mon wana go out with classmates aso cnt! wtf!!! guess hw i spend my whole mon? i woke up at 11.40am went to wash my shoes then breakfast and went to grandpa hse and ltr on tuition, when everyone is out to enjoy themselves! i nid help from God and i believed that He will ans my prayers! thanks to besties who encuraged and comforted me! it somewat helps!
u noe that even though i smile in sch and everything seemed ok, bt actually im dying inside. the saddest part is that, with each passing day, i feel that i need u more bt then the fact is that u dont need me anymore!!! even though i told u that wats expected cant hurt but its wat that wasnt expeceted that hurts, bt it didnt turn oout to be that way! i noe u have ur own thinkings and reasons! bt i juz kun bring myself to face the fact!
recorded at 10:18 PM
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